I can always tell when it's coming back
Tightening of chest, loss of breath, back down the slide

The freak comes from nowhere, but I can feel it now when it gets here. It's manifested into something physical, something that hurts. It focuses on my chest, short of breath, ouch

I'm terrified, above all things. Crying won't fix it, but it's a relief to get something out.

I can't stop the freak