As far as men are concerned, it sucks to get the expectation high when I am drunk.
Actually it's just dumb on my part.
I have the worst habit of allowing myself to hope hope hope when there is alcohol running through my system.

I always have this fear that if I lose sight of him, physically, he'll be gone and won't come back. Even as a friend. That's why I get so caught up in all of this all of the time.
Last night I lost sight and it was such a huge disappointment because it didn't have to be that way.

And I've gotten so good at putting myself to bed early and alone, which is probably the best way.


And I'm feeling just fine.



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