It just crossed my mind that I really have no idea how much I smile anymore.
When in the world did I become so serious??
I laugh when things are funny, but I feel like I'm never in a "smiling mood."
Lately, it takes a noticeable effort to get me smiling. Some people can get me to smile willingly, but the presence of others can just as naturally lead to tears & self-loathing for how weak I am for allowing someone else to (yes) MAKE me feel a certain way. This means I am not at all in control.

Those sentences didn't make much sense.







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