I can't believe I just did that to myself and that I told anyone about it and that now my parents probably know. I don't even remember being on the phone but I checked the caller ID and the number is there at 12:09 AM.

I woke up with messages sent to me that scared me because I thought something bad had happened to someone else. But it was me that everyone was looking for because I don't have any semblance of control over myself.

Enough hatred to do it
Enough stupidity to tell a soul