And you know, in grade school....when they told us to "just say no?" they never told us it would be so hard. Or that we might be tempted to say yes, even though that isn't the right answer. And feeling tempted is normal and okay. They didn't tell us we would feel humiliated when it happened, not empowered at that type of denial. They didn't say that he could make us feel like shit, even though he was "nice" about it. Or that he could so easily, cruelly, manipulate us into feeling guilty and humiliated about the whole thing. The he could so easily take our power. My power. And he isn't giving it back so now I have to start from scratch and find some. And I'm not sure at all if I can do that, or if I ever will. I'll try though, promise.



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