Hi

I live.

Many of my friends who read this already know that I have been avoiding company for the past 5 days. Preferring a book and my family to the outside world. Never thought I would be that girl, hiding out from God knows what. Anyway, it's the reason that I have been ignoring many texts, IMs, and phone calls. What can you do, life goes on.

The only person I have managed to see so far (aside from rehearsal) is Brian.
Go figure.
After 5 years of really "knowing" him, I feel that now I know him more than ever. He has always been in this weird, perpetual state of depression. And now, every once in a while, when I've been dwelling and by myself, I think that this must be how his entire life is. Emotions like these were one of the many walls that existed between us. I get it now, although it doesn't change much. Just because I can understand a wall does not mean I can will it to go away.

When I saw him we went to an art opening down the street from my cafe. One of my regulars there was an artist at the show, so we were escorted in VIP- free of charge. Very cool, no? I felt chic and with it while walking up the stairs to the loft with all of the artists and their work, while downstairs the potter Drew vouched for me.
Next summer I will most likely be joining the artist community at this place. It isn't prestigious, but it is free and prestige can only come with added artists and time. By then, I will have had an entire year more of studying my own art and the works of others, and I really look forward to being there.

So.







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