So it's been a week since it happened and 6 days since we found out. I woke up in a good mood, but I'm going back to sleep feeling like it's day 1 again.

When

Will I stop looking for you on IM

or searching for your face in a sea of your friends

"On Thursday March 24th my best friend and room mate Mitch Dubey was shot in front of me in our own home in a completely unprovoked incident, he was rushed to the hospital but died shortly after. 2 Years prior we threw a benefit show for his family after his father had a tragic snowboarding accident and became paralyzed from the neck down. Needless to say the family could use a lot of help in this extremely difficult time. We arethrowing a benefit show to raise the funds necessary for a proper funeral as well as honor the amazing life of Mitch Dubey. He was a great friend and an incredible person that touched the lives of everyone that he met. I find it difficult to put into words just how much mitch meant to me, I have known him for over 7 years, the last three of which were spent living with him in new haven. The thought of playing a show without him there still has me in tears but i know that this is the most fitting send off that we could possibly provide. We need to let mitch live on in all of us by honoring his memory and staying positive. We have assembled some of mitch's favorite bands for a night of music that should be nothing short of amazing, please help spread the word and lets do our best to help out the dubey family as much as possible. We love all you guys and it's horrible that it takes something like this for us to realize just how incredibly strong the people that make up the CT music scene are. Stay Radical. - Andy"

I am thinking thoughts I NEVER in a trillion years thought I would and they are positive and hopeful which blows my mind.

I won't get too excited or reveal my plans on here, if you are a close friend you are privy to this information.

ghghghkdk oh man

SPRRRRRINGGGGGGGGGGG

We'll see what happens after a year of doula work. Maybe I will go into nursing and OB/GYN work. Maybe I will become an abortion provider.

My birthday houseplant from Josh is THRIVING. I usually kill plants, but I left the house for 3 days and now it’s all perky and budding everywhere wheeeemmmyayayyaa:33333 *Go figure but WHATEVER, I will do whatever it takes to make this plant not die and stuff~